Thursday, October 21, 2010

Happiness and love.

Love, it's that emotion that people try their whole life's to find and receive. Happiness, it's what happens when you find love. I found love and happiness found me. I am a negative person, I am generally guyish even though I'm a girl, I am a cynic, a self proclaimed existentialist. I was all of that. And then I found love and I gave love and happiness found me. I am not as negative, I am girly to a certain extent, I have hope, I care. I am happy. It is a difficult concept to grasp. That a complete stranger can love you for you just because. But is it really just because? Something about you attracted that other person right? Either way, they love you, they love YOU, enough to want to spend the rest of their life with you. How?? Why? I feel that way, I love him so much! He makes me so happy! I loved him and I had only known him for a few months. How? I cannot understand it myself and I am going through it. I often find myself pondering it. But I don't think I'll ever understand. Maybe I wouldn't be able to take it if I understood. Maybe it is something larger than humans can grasp. What is more important is that I found it! I found what some people don't find until they only have a few years of life left. What most people search for so long for. People seem to get so close to it, but something ends it. Something? No, not something, they do it to themselves. They don't fight for it. I made a promise to him and to myself. I found something no one can take away from me. No one can take my love away because I won't let them. Love is worth fighting for. He is the reason I fight. I love him and he loves me. It's as simple as that. The only ones who could end that are ourselves. It used to scare me that so many acquaintances were leaving their partners of years. And I thought, if it happened to them, it could happen to me. But even though it can, I won't let it. He won't let it. WE won't let it.
I am happy. Because of him. I love him. So much. It's that easy. That's all. ♥