So most people go through one at some point in their life's. It doesn't have to be an amorous relationship, it can be familiar, friendship, etc. The same ideas apply. At first it seems like it will be immensely difficult. Later as time goes on, you get used to the idea. You learn ways of talking to the other person more or seeing them more often. You learn to cope. But time wears on and your schedules conflict or it doesn't seem worth it anymore. You start talking less and less each time, then what? This is where I'm at right now. We talked as often as possible in the beginning, we even found a way to see each other over a weekend (this is an amorous relationship). Things seemed to flow smoothly and time seemed to go faster for a little while. But then we stopped talking as much at this point, it's good if I even get a phone call every night. Before it was a phone call every night and I must have gotten used to that, something I should never do, get used to things. I'm afraid that this will turn into a phone call every few days to a phone call once a week to maybe once every two weeks and then once a month. What do I do then? Maybe he can deal with minimal contact, but I can't. Maybe he doesn't want to deal with it anymore, but I'll never know because we don't talk. Let's say we make it, what will it be like when I return? Will things be the same, will it still work out? It's a constant subject that walks around my head. I can deal with things not being the same, but if they turn to the worst I don't know how long I could deal with. What if not seeing each other for so long has gotten us used to not being with each other? Will we still love each other as much as we did before? I hope that we love each other more and everything works out, but there are always "what if's?" Nothing is ever certain, that's why I shouldn't get used to things. That's why I'm a self proclaimed drifter. If nothing is ever constant, I'll never get hurt by CHANGE. I'll always embrace it. I know it's unrealistic, but a girl can dream. I'm uncertain when it comes to long distance relationships, does absence really make the heart grow fonder? Or is that just a saying that keeps people going? So many questions,twice as many answers. I will not know until I live it. Every situation is different. What worked for you might not for me. But it is good to keep your mind open, my motto is "Try most everything at least once." If you keep trying you can keep learning. Life is a challenge, but try it and you will be surprised. Make the most of what you have now and cherish that. You may never know what you had until you lose it. It's better to enjoy it when you have it than to miss it when you don't. And with that, my RANT ends.
Writing is a great way to rid yourself of "boredom" and a great relief. Maybe people aren't reading, but you got it out. :) "Later days!"- The Weekenders
Thursday, June 3, 2010
CHANGE. It's inevitable. People change, circumstances change, life changes. EVERYTHING. But many people fight it. They are too comfortable with their routines and any thing that could deviate from normalcy is a threat. Not all change is bad as is true that not all change is good. What is true is that CHANGE is, well, change. It is a deviation from the ordinary. Being s restless drifter, CHANGE is an amazing thing to me. It allows my life to flow from one point to another without becoming adjusted to one thing. People often take for granted small changes they can make and never stray from ordinary. Even a small CHANGE will cause a rift in normalcy. I welcome CHANGE. It is inevitable, fighting it would be futile. At some point in everyone's life, there will be some form of CHANGE. It can be as simple as a change in hair products and as major as a life changing event (pregnancy, college, etc.) I also believe that CHANGE is necessary in everyone's life. I can't even imagine what life would be like if everything remained the same. Like a cartoons life, you'd wear the same clothes and do the same things day after day. I'd get that "stuck" feeling. CHANGE fights "boredom", so if you fight CHANGE you embrace "boredom." I for one am not about to embrace something that I believe does not exist. So don't fight CHANGE, it isn't going to go away. EMBRACE THE c h a n g e.